Friday, December 23, 2011

'Tis the Season

Lights. Tinsel. Garland. Presents around the tree. The Christmas season is upon us once more. Yet, as the years go by, it just seems like every other day. Just an average day where something is supposed to happen.

What happened to that little boy that couldn't sleep the night before Christmas? The one that would be up before everyone else, getting coffee made, toast in the toaster, butter and jelly on the counter, just waiting for the clock to chime seven. I haven't seen him in decades.

Sometimes, it feels so futile. Never anyone that wants to spend the important times with you. Never anyone that can find an interest in things you do. Never anyone to share life with. When will it change? Life is supposed to be a journey that is shared between friends and family. Yet, everyone keeps their distance. Sure, they might humor you for a few weeks, but it never lasts.

I want to feel the excitement I once felt for holidays. Dressing up for Halloween with friends. Having a family of my own to give thanks for on Thanksgiving. Being happy on Christmas. Sharing a home cooked dinner with someone special on Valentine's Day.

It's been too long.